yikes..hanging out with my OLD crew tomorrow night..im super excited..but a little nervous that it might be awkward..ehh i shouldnt worry..

~lkf

so over the past 48 hours, i have recieved a car, i have balled my freaking eyes out infront of close to 1500 people (after singing all by myself infront of them as well) and managed to make a SERIOUS ass outta myself at work..wow

today i was checking my myspace, and gaby added me as her friend..(exciting huh?) but in all seriousness, it made me REALLY miss her and the old crew. idk i just feel like because i worked ALL the time this past school year, i really didnt get a good chance to connect with them..but on the other hand, they kinda turned me off by drinking outta no where that one night..for no reason apparently..they just started..never before..(they never wanted to before that) it really upset me..FYI: i CANT drink..i run the risk of liver failure as well as having 2 VERY bad genes for alcoholism. i mean im not going to get all pissy at someone for drinking ect cus its their decision..its just that when people i know and care about do it out of no where for no apparent reason other than just to do it, that bothers me, especially since they never had any interest in drinking before. these girls and i have proven to EVERYONE that you can have a good time without putting somthing into ur body. its more fun that way..more clear, and more memorable. i love these girls..even tho theyre dumb sometimes and annoy the hell outta me..theyre my sisters..and i am TRULY going to miss them next year. it just seems like EVERYONE i know has been like "oh no i dont drink or smoke..thast gay", to "where can we get fucked up tonight?" and its not just the old crew..its my other friends too..this alone makes me so sad..and i feel like i have to shrink back and distance myself from these people..dont get me wrong..i LOVE to have a good time..just not with alcohol..

they say all of this changes as soon as you go to college..that you dont even bother fighting it anymore cus EVERYONE does it...that may be..andi might have to get used to it..but for now..i just want my girls back :(

this summer should be depressingly lonely..

so graduation was last night..and these were the series of events that occured..

i got my SWEET new laptop.., went out for a bit with momma dukes, dan and aaron came over and swam..i got pretty, rode on a bus down to the liacouras sang infront of about 6000 people, graduated, threw my hat up in the air, lost it, watched a former classmate streak (with shorts on) across the floor of the liacouras past dr.burt, down the aisles, and into the stands where he was tackled by security, i walked out of the liacouras and was elbowed in the mouth by some stupid girl, and started to bleed and cry because of the pain, and because HIGHSCHOOL IS OVERRRRRRRR....whoo freakin hoo..

~lkf

wooooo

senior prom was on thursday..and wow what a wild night. i looked dazzling..actually EVERYONE looked hot..it was so fun, but probably would have been a lot better if we got there on time and if we stayed until it was actually time to leave. it started at 7 and we got there at 9, and it ended at 12 and we left at 11:30..wow. post prom sucked..it was alright for the first hour or 2 cus i was actually alive, but i crashed hardcore as soon as 3 am rolled around. i won a playstation 2 game, which is kinda pointless cus i dont have that system and i probably wouldnt play it if i did, so good thing i live right around the corner from game stop so i can get me some MONEY HONEY! but yeah post prom ended at 5 am and so everyone is getting ready to leave, and so i call erica to see where she is and when she was planning on leaving. she tells me to call mercedes. so i call mercedes, and mercedes tells me "o lois, i already left" what? so..basically im stuck at someplace in the northeast and i have NO idea how im gettng home..i was furious! thanks for telling me tha tyou left mercedes..like what the fuck! i was so pissed. so thankfully me and ej saw jermaine and pat at the end of the night, and pat was going straight home, but jermaine was going to ihop, so we were like..uh yeah we wanna go home lol..so pat took us home. (he won 500 bucks at post..pretty hot..) so yeah that was my interesting night..friday i did NOTHING, and i was pissed about that..last night i chilled with camp people and my favorite lady amy hoffman...she was like FREAKING out that i was going to millersville..haha it was kinda funny...so today i think aaron and dan are coming over..we were supposed to go down to the farm in maryland today, but its supposed to thunderstorm pretty bad..so that would ahve been kinda shitty. so i dont really know what were doing...but it should be fun anyway..i havnt chilled with dan in forever..so im def looking forward to that...but yeah im out..later

~LKF

O LORD..wow i havnt written in this thing forever..kinda sad.

tomorrow is my senior prom!!..and im super excited..just kinda fuzzy on whats goin on..i didnt make any of our plans..so i have NO idea whats happening afterwards, or when we're leaving for sixflags or if im even going down the shore on sunday as planned..SOOO wierd..anyway its awesome cus basically after tomorrow i have no school..signing yearboooks and goofing off in class is pretty much all im going to do for the last 2 remaining days of my highschool career. its retarted that i have to be so stressed out about this..im going to a fantastic college next year, and im really excited. MU baby..anyway.. today im leaving school early cus i dont need to be here anymore..plus the 3 classes that actually matter are 2nd 3rd and 4th (which i dont have to take finals in cus im smart like that..HOLLA!)

 this past week has really made me wanna get the fuck outta here in all honesty. i cant stand my parents..in fact the home life is hellish..my dad would be cool if he didnt have the brain capacity of a 8 year old..but hey what can you do? he actually told me the other day that when he completely looses it (which wont be too long in actuality) he wants me to be the caregiver instead of my mom..hahah i thought that was freakin hilarious...i dont really blame him tho. i wouldnt want a manipulative bitch looking after me if i was terminatlly ill either..GOD i wanna leave so bad...3 months..omg 3 effing months..

ive been kinda ignoring my myspace.com site..i only check it to see if anyone has written me messages, and i honestly get at least one a day from this kid dan. he and i hung out ONCE..and hes effing obsessed..nice guy..just super wierd and kinda on the stalkerish side. and the only reason i remember that i still had a xanga was cus i got a comment from jackie and lisa on a blog i wrote like 5 years ago lol..

OMG  i get my laptop in a week..im so excited..it was soooooooo expensive tho.. but hey..i paid for it so who cares..no one else will ever touch this thing of beauty i swear. speakin of beauty im going to be SO hot tomorrow..like SO hot..omg..im thinkin of getting a community webshot site to put up all my pictures that im going to have from prom sixflags and senior week. as well as stuff from the summer..i need that freakin laptop tho lol..alright well i've rambled for too long so im gonna stop..until next time

~LKF